|Deviant Login||Shop||Join deviantART for FREE||Take the Tour|
Things have taken a turn...I've spent years of my life in a pretty huge pool of regret. Most of the time I was told I wasn't worth the dirt I walked on by the people who supposedly loved me.
There was a lot of fear, longing, confusion, and honest to God disappointment in my youth and it led me to develop some kind of complex over the years.
I went out tonight with my mum to go shopping. For the most part we get along sometimes, mostly dependent on her moods. Some days I'm nothing to her and others... I'm a friend. I never really know what day will bring what kind of reception. Today was one of her good days I guess.
The journey started out as usual discussing random crap about her work and the car and then the rest of the time I'm sitting there listening to her hack her lungs out before she goes into another bit of conversation.
Something was different tonight though...
To understand what I'm about to just say you'd have to understand this woman I live with. As I mentioned some
Don't get played (pt.2) Pricing, ads, etc.This will be someway related to my previous article called "Don't get played" and in this I will be posting a few ideas and tips I have gained over the years on how one could go about:
* Pricing their artwork
* Gaining more experience and ways to improve
* and a few other tidbits
So let's start off with Pricing, shall we?
It seems to be a common problem, more so among younger/novice artists who are looking to start selling their work. It looks pretty easy when you look at the more popular/well known artists who have already established a consumer base and seem to be cranking out commissions left and right. However, let me just clear the air on this before we get started -- Fame isn't everything. Now, I know it may seem like it is the key ingredient to getting customers but that's not the case. Yes, being more well known can help bring in more revenue but it's not what gets you started in the first
Don't get playedAlright, so there was a recent 'happening' in the dA forums concerning a commission offer made by someone with the starting price of $30. The piece they were asking for was supposedly a really highly detailed piece, large resolution, and basically something you'd spend (on the low end of the market) no less than $250.00 on.
Now, from here on out this may be purely opinion and because my participation in the industry has only been for about 10 years (as in being paid for my work) I may not be the best person to speak on this matter. However, I have to say something, if only to put my own opinions on the matter out there.
15 years ago I got my first commission. It was a full colour realism portrait for someone of their dog and I offered to do it for $5.00 using traditional media.
They took up the offer and it took me about a week of working on and off to finish their image. At the time I wasn't anywhere near being sure of my skills even though I'd been drawing comprehensively
A peeve of mine... [vent/rant :P]I have this thing about people who gloat/boast about having a bunch of stuff like iPads, iPhones, Android tablets, multiple laptops, huge TVs, four cars, etc...
Now...I'm all for being proud of the achievements that allowed you to have all that stuff but honestly, there's no need to come about boasting saying 'I just got another ______'. For some reason it bothers me, maybe I'm just weird.
I just don't think it's necessary to boast =/ It really wouldn't be an issue if it didn't seem as though most people who do do that are looking to amp up their worth with 'things'.
It's kind of like "Look at me, I have a crappy personality but I have 4 iPhones and a bunch of stuff! Aren't I awesome?"
Look, if a car doesn't have an engine you can paint it as pretty as can be, but that doesn't make it a good car.
Maybe it's because I don't have a lot of stuff or because I was taught that your worth and merit wasn't measured by material things, but it bothers me to no end
Depression"It's not real" -- It sure as heck feels real. So real it IS my reality on a daily basis.
"It's just an excuse to get out of doing things that other people have to" -- I'd love to do thing other people are doing, and I'd relish in being happy when I do so.
"You're just a little sad, you'll get over it" -- Depression isn't just 'feeling sad sometimes'... it's feeling sad ALL the time for what seems like no reason at all.
"Just grow up! Everyone is depressed, you just have to deal with it like everyone else!" -- Stop using everyone else to justify your insensitivity to other people's conditions (also, most of the people suffering from depression are adults, you don't get much more 'grown up' than adult).
"You're not suffering from anything, you're just lazy, ungrateful, and being silly" -- Ok, because obviously I LOVE feeling miserable, worthless, and stupid all the time...who wouldn't...?
"Stop using that as an excuse to not do anything." -- If I could manage to do something a
Responses to my last article (pt.1)So after reading comments on that latest article http://fav.me/d6q4snq about 'humanizing wolves' I noticed a lot of people argued or debated quite a few points. Points I felt I should try to cover in a sort of Q&A section here.
KEEP IN MIND PLEASE: In some parts of this there is personal opinions but I have included facts which can be backed up by research and by searching the internet as well. I've tried to cite sources as much as I could and give sound evidence when possible. I cannot be held completely liable if some information is outdated and I'm unaware but I would be glad to learn the updated information IF you have it accessible.
Now, let's begin!
1. Wolves can be tamed! My 'so-and-so' owned a wolf and it was the best pet I've ever seen! You're wrong if you think wolves can't be tamed!
(This goes along with wolfdogs as well for the most part)
Answer: Yeah, just because y
Can I ask a question...? (Religious)Alright, I'll probably get shit for this but I am seriously curious...
What the hell is up with all these young people becoming Satanists? [Please forgive that awful pun... |D]
I mean honestly... do you even know what a Satanist is?
What they do? What you're getting into?
This isn't just a 'walk in walk out' kind of thing...
What drives people to become Satanists? More so young people...
I mean really... What convinces you?
Are you trying to stick out, be different, be edgy?
Look, if you were BORN into the religion fine... but if you willingly, openly, and nonchalantly just walked into that religion I suggest you rethink what you're claiming to be.
Satanism isn't what they show you on TV with shows like 'Supernatural' where the demons are these hot men and all's well ends well, okay?
It's not that at all.
I'm all for free choice but when I see so many teenagers walking into a religion that
Devious Journal EntryUpdate: Okay... so I have to say that I was not expecting that kind of response... I went to do a Livestream to try to calm my nerves as they always have a way of cheering me up a bit (and it did) and I come back to see all of this. I...I'm at a loss for words, really. I am sorry for just dumping all this crap out there but honestly it was burning inside of me and I just had to get it out. I seem to get some pretty solid advice here and I have been talking to my online friends. I think the best thing for me to do right now is get out. I mean that literally. Just get out and go...
I'll try to go see someone for my disorders even if I can't really afford to. I have no choice at this point because I am afraid I will do something stupid without even knowing (it's happened before unfortunately and it feels like it did back then so)...
It will take me a bit to get to everyone's comments and notes (jeeze-whiz there's many .__.) so please, have patience. I'm really t
Stronger than SuicideYou are so much stronger than suicide.
You are so much more powerful than the cuts on your arm,
And so much better than your eating disorder.
So much more than your scars.
Please look me in the eyes,
And show me your wounds,
Whether they be on your forearm,
Or your heart.
Have you been skipping meals?
Have you been cutting?
Well, here’s something for you to try.
Think one thing,
Just one thing,
Just remember to prove to the world,
Are stronger than
You can't say you can't!As a child I was a bright student, always used to grab among the first 3 positions in my class, teachers used to love me (I was never a teacher's pet though) and my mom and dad (specially dad) supported me with his heart and soul. We always have guidance/influence from others in some way or the other. I was fortunate enough to get them I guess. But there comes a time in your life where you need to move alone and build your own responsibilities, you need to make your own ways, you need make your own decisions and you need to choose the right path.
The world is cruel enough to pull you down every time you want to climb up. But you can't stop there. You have to move on. You can't say you can't!
I have seen a lot of phases in my life in the last 25 years. In deviantART everyone says they like the way I talk to people, the way I treat them and the way I guide them. May be I shouldn't use the word "everyone", perhaps it should be at least most of them says so.
I get a lot of people coming to
DD! Today I've got a Daily Deviation on my Maneki pixel!
This is the 8th Daily deviation I ever received ;w;
And this is the piece I'm the most excited of seeing featured,
because I've put much more time and work on this one than
all the other DDs I received.
Thank you to RRRAI for suggesting it
and vanmall for featuring it
It's Not LoveIt's Not Love (but it hurts like it)
He says things to her that I wish men said to me.
Things like - the image of your beauty
will press in on the eyelids of men
your departure from this lifetime.
Things like - you make me feel like being myself
is not just acceptable but it is wonderful!
That I, being the only me I could ever possibly be,
is proof positive of a chaotic world
creating love and life and joy -
and that no one else but me
could make you smile the way you do.
Things like - I don't need you.
If you were gone I could breathe,
I could pump blood,
I could spit
I could do anything I wanted to -
but I would not want to.
I wouldn't want to do anything
without you by my side.
Things like - I'm always here for you,
because I prioritise the things that matter to me
and you are at the top
- so if that means I can't pay my rent
because I had to come save you
from the fog in your heart - and I lost my job - fuck it.
I'll still come.
...But try not to mak
'Just be yourself'As a kid I had problems grasping the meaning of "be yourself". Whenever I asked what it meant, the replies were hardly satisfying. Mostly, I was told NOT to be the way I thought of as ok but to be like the kid next door, because he was so well behaved. Or someone famous, someone rich, because they were successful and the more successful you are, the better.
But even at a very young age I already noticed the contradiction here: how was I supposed to be myself if I was copying someone else? This seemed off.
In the end it wasn't a human who was able to explain the concept of "be yourself" to me.
It was a video game.
With a blue hedgehog.
The first thing I noticed about the game was how happy he looked. He was clearly doing the one thing he loved to do, the one thing he did best. And he made a dent with it.
I was impressed.
And then I was hooked.
And by the time we had traveled through three games, I was certain that I had understood the whole "be yourself" thing. And I adored him for it.
Life is Beautiful...Isn't it?
There are magical moments in life where I get the opportunity to remember that I'm nothing but an insignificant living being among 8 billion others.. on a planet among 8 in a solar system among billions in a galaxy among trillions and all in one universe-- possibly among others?-- where whether or not I died, would hardly leave a mark even in the face of my own city.
The world goes on without you.
Yet I once realized, that a meaning in life, is to give life a meaning.
Live your dreams! You only live once.
Don't do idiotic dares for the sake of saying you did them-- go tell that cute boy or girl you like them!
Go tell the world your name!
Why must everything be over after one failure..?
Sure, the humiliation of having everyone look down upon you is torture itself... but when you get back up and show everyone that you're somebody, it won't be you who'd be ashamed for not realizing your potential sooner-- but them!
There are mome
Think of This..You want to end it?
Think of this.
You write your suicide note... And you set it on the table.
You take your razor, your silver, two inch razor. And you start to slide it across your wrist. You barely feel a thing. After all, the pain of life is more than the pain of the blade.
And you take that belt you never wore, the one that was too tight, the one you starved yourself to fit into. And you wrap it once, twice around your neck... and you pull it tight.
Barely breathing, you put the ends of the belt on something to hold you up.
Something to strangle you.
Something to kill you.
And you die.
And that's the end, right?
So, so wrong.
Your younger brother, the four year old little boy that you loved so much. He walks into your room, only to find you hanging there, lifelessly. Only to find you with dried tears on your pale face. Only to find your suicide note... the one you left right before you died.
And so he runs in tears to your mother. And she reads the note, barely able to brea
suggesting DD's (daily deviations)Edit on Sept 3, 2013: I changed this article a bit after I had a friendly chat with some of the (former) volunteers and senior members of the website. I hope the details help you in making even better submissions
Everybody on DeviantArt seems to know about the Daily Deviations, or DD's. The handful of artworks that makes it to the frontpage every day. The artworks that are shown at the bottom of the site all day long, and get loads of exposure. I guess they're the wet dream for many people on DA.
DD's are usually a reason for discussion. I can't even begin to count the topics on the forums that are about why some deviations are chosen over others, and how the quality of those deviations keep declining year after year. Not many people know, however, that's it's not entirely up to the staff which works are picked. And that we can have our own vote on this.
So I can have an influence
Before you kill yourself...Before you kill yourself,
Remember just one little thing.
There are places to go,
Where you have never been before.
How can you be sure those places are bad?
There are things to see,
Things you have never seen before.
How can you be sure those things are ugly?
There is a new tune to hear,
Something you've never heard before.
How can you be sure that tune is scary?
There are words to be said,
Things that have never been said before.
How can you be sure those words are hurtful?
There are dreams to be imagined,
Things you have never dreamed before.
How can you be sure that they are nightmares?
Darling, please don't give up.
Please stay strong.
Don't let go.
I just wanted to say that I know you're going through some stuff right now, stuff that may make life a little harder or even a lot harder. I know you've felt so alone and like no one cares that you're hurting and suffering, but I just wanted to say I love you. Wherever you are, whoever you are, whatever has happened or is happening to you… you're not alone.
You are amazing, beautiful, wonderful, unique, and worth every breath of life you breathe. I love you, I need you in this world, and I wish only the best things for you. You are in my heart always, all of you. I pray that you find a peaceful end to the troubles of your life and I just want you to know that despite everything, despite feeling like no one cares… please know that I do. I may be a stranger to you but that doesn't mean I don't feel for you. You are special and so very loved by more people than you know.
Transformers: We Came in WarTransformers: We Came in War
Setting: Sometime during the Bay films
Characters: Optimus Prime
We came to this planet because ours was gone.
The quest for power consumed our home. The need for domination destroyed us. Still we live, and yet there is a piece in each of us that has been decimated forever. We will never recover what we have lost.
I look down upon this planet, and I wonder why we try.
It is evident by now that we have lost the capacity for peace. War follows in our wake. We came to retrieve the AllSpark, which has long since been lost, and we are still here. All that came of attempting to revive our planet was the relocation of the war from our planet of death to this planet of life. There is so much life on this planet. All of it we have sworn to protect. This is the promise we have made to them. But the promise would not need to have been made if we had never co
Keep in Touch!
Endorell-Taelos is very well known within the community for her selfless giving and gracious community spirit. Since joining DeviantART over seven years ago, Alicia has continued to make a positive impact on many deviants. Her helpful and thoughtful approach was one of her finest attributes when serving as a Community Volunteer, and this has continued throughout the many contests which Alicia provides on a regular basis. As we approach our Birthday celebrations, we can't... Read More